Where did time go? I just finished my 8 week medsurg rotation. Tbh, I am NOT going to miss it. Maybe it’s cus my instructor was tough, or maybe it was those Mondays that I dedicated researching and staying up to do my worksheets. Nope, not gonna miss it. Though, I learned A LOT! A lot about pathophysio and why doctors order this, that, test this, test that. It was a lot.. in the beginning my classmates and I all felt like we should have been in medical school cus of all the information our instructor wanted us to know about our patients. But in the end, I knew that it was for the better. I am stronger and more knowledgeable. I learned more about myself and the kind of things I needed to work on. And boy, were they humbling. It’s funny cus being an LVN, you’d think I’d be amazing at juggling 3 pts. Shoot, I do it at work.. How different could it be? HA! I was so humbled. It’s as if God was telling me to get off my high horse and feel the ground. I did. Few breaking points here and there. Omg, this might have been the VERY first time since RN school I broke down and I have wanted to quit. No sugar coating it. I really did. Darryl saw me, and he saw how wrecked I was. It was a combination of everything. I felt like all the things that I was doing last semester was NOT cutting it this time. I couldn’t fly by, I couldn’t maintain. I was average. And again, God told me to get off my high horse, and I did. Another humbling experience.
Now here I am, 3 weeks of ambulatory rotation and 4 weeks of psych rotation. Thank you Lord! I don’t know how I made it through. I owe every bit of it to You!